Christmas music is playing. Christmas decorations are everywhere. The happiest time of the year is here. Is it? Did you have good childhood holiday memories? What was one memory that pops up from childhood when you think about the holidays?
I am beyond words right now with how I feel about the department. I do not understand who I have pissed off to end up here. I know a child removal is not a big deal, especially if they won’t be considerate of our concerns. However, it does not hurt any less.
I pray (even though I’m not religious, I pray to a higher power) that my kiddo will remain strong and grow up to be the wonderful and smart girl I see in her.
I don’t know about you but October flew by and it felt like it almost didn’t happen. Typically it only happens like that when I’m having a good time. I definitely wouldn’t categorize the last month as “good times”.
It feels like things are finally coming together…slowly. I have to keep reminding myself, no matter the pace of the progress, I have to keep going. Progress is progress. I feel like I’ve armed myself with so much new information in the last month and half, I’m ready to step into my new role. What’s so awesome is that I finally feel like I belong. I feel I am at a place where I can help and assist others with their foster children. Something I’ve yearned to do since I could remember. Doing something meaningful, impactful!
I am a CSP (CARE Service Partner) for Fostering UNITY of Los Angeles County. I now sit in meetings with Directors, Deputy Directors of CDSS (California Department of Social Services). I participated as liaisons between foster families and DCFS. I am here to make a difference!
This is just the beginning of my journey in the fostering field. I can’t wait to help out as many people as I can. I’m here to share my love.
This week has been crazy already and it’s only Tuesday. Between training for work, assisting my nephew with his virtual learning and make sure my foster kiddo does her stuff on time….I didn’t get to eat lunch until after 3:30p. When I signed up to work for Fostering UNITY, I didn’t know my kiddo would come back to me. Now I almost feel like I bit off more than I can chew. But if other people can do it, so can I!! I’m sure in 2 weeks after trainings are over, I will feel much better.
Regardless of how overwhelming everything seems right now, I am beyond ecstatic to work with this group of amazing people.
If you are or about to become a foster parent in Los Angeles County, please join this group and you will see what I am raving about!
After an eventful weekend at Big Bear lake last weekend celebrating hubby’s birthday….this week has been uninteresting.
I guess it’s the universe’s way to prepare me for today. Started out as an ordinary monday morning. Hubby and I decided not to do anything special for our 8th wedding anniversary since Covid19 is making it difficult for us to go out and his work has been crazy all week. However he requested Chinese food from a specific restaurant this morning. Due to his keto diet and finicky gouty foot….it’s hard for him to find stuff he can eat. So why not.
In the morning I received a surprising phone call, which I will discuss at another time. Right after I was able to grab a quick bite for lunch, then my future boss called to discuss my role.
Fast forward to dinner time, our wedding anniversary meal did not show. The story you can find out in my rant video. #doordashsfault
Of course after all of that I found out my mother-in-law’s backyard flooded and my mom’s fridge still did not work after supposedly fixing.
It may not be all that thrilling….but it just did not all need to happen on the same day. I guess when it rains, it pours, right?!?
As I go through these awkward days of COVID19 and grieving for a foster child departing, I continuing to search for my purpose. I really enjoy helping people and I would love to be of use to others. Currently I found an exciting opportunity that I will share in detail once I have complete the entire on boarding process. What I can say is that, I continue to be amazed by all the wonderful resource families out there. And that I drive to help may have found a good place to be of use.
If you know of any resource families that may need help in LA County, please spread the word about CARE line!
Even though 2020 has not proven to be easy, I thought I was handling it well. Always trying to look towards the positive and finding new things to occupy my mind. However….sometimes I just cannot move pass the anguish.