I am beyond words right now with how I feel about the department. I do not understand who I have pissed off to end up here. I know a child removal is not a big deal, especially if they won’t be considerate of our concerns. However, it does not hurt any less.
I pray (even though I’m not religious, I pray to a higher power) that my kiddo will remain strong and grow up to be the wonderful and smart girl I see in her.
As one door closes, another door opens. Most of the time, things happens for a reason. Therefore we should be patient and see what happens next.
Last few days I have been keeping busy with my niece(s) and nephew. (Yes I call my sister’s dog, my fur niece π₯°)
Just wanted to do a quick entry to say what’s up.
This was it, time to say goodbye. I did not know how hard it was going to be. My lungs feel like flattened balloons and that I had bricks on my chest.
How a little five year old changed our world in three short months, I would never have thought possible.
I will never forget you….
Too many emotions, too much going on. My shoulders are constantly sore now and my back really needs an adjustment.
We wish she wasn’t leaving but sadly it’s not up to us. Hope she knows we truly love her and that she retained anything positive we taught her during her short stay with us. Hope we will really keep in touch and that she’s happy.
I wish I could share her photos and show the world how infectious her smile is.
Three months ago today foster daughter came into our life and opened our eyes to so many different things. Kiddo definitely taught me patience is more than a virtue, its a skill that is a must have. Communication is absolutely necessary. Last but not least, love and positive modeling is a great way to teach them without them knowing it.
We known for over a week that she is leaving us and we couldn’t say anything. We have to hide our sadness and dismay. Now she’s been notified, we can hug it out whenever we feel down because of it.
Now not only trying to stay positive for myself, have to be positive for all of us. Trying to reassure her how great everything will be when in truth… we do not know what it will be like.
Who is going to be strong for me?
This week is spring break. I have been doing research to see what activities we can do. I have to plan my day every 20 minutes at a time to make sure she is happy and engaged. Of course I make sure she is learning as she plays as well. I have been posting fun activities we have done through out the day on Instagram, don’t forget to check it out. With COVID-19 and this weather it is really hard keeping her entertained. Thanks to all the wonderful kind souls who has helped us during this time. In case you missed it, here’s a list of things my dearest foster girl need to keep her entertained during this scary time.
Please stay home and stay safe everyone! We can get through this together! Please feel free to message, call us anytime!
Sometimes we just can’t help to have certain expectations of things, even we know not to. During the first few days, there were many ups and downs. Overall, things were not disastrous. However, there is always something that we did not expect or mentally prepare for.
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