Current state of mind

Even though 2020 has not proven to be easy, I thought I was handling it well. Always trying to look towards the positive and finding new things to occupy my mind. However….sometimes I just cannot move pass the anguish.

To vent or not to vent

I have hope to do a vlog at some point. However my free time has been shrinking smaller and smaller with this wild and wonderful kiddo in my home. There are plenty of things we enjoy and there are definitely a lot of things we would love to avoid when it comes to the kiddo. However right now my frustration lies somewhere else. I know there are tons of other people expressing their dismay about this whole learning at home thing. I feel my concerns are a little more specific. I am very happy teaching the kiddo at home. I also feel she benefits from it as well. The regular routine and a little more peace and quiet compared to a school setting. I am aware my case may or is different from many others. But there were two incident that happened within the last week that had me feel very frustrated (and not towards the kiddo!! lol).

First kiddo’s therapist said its okay not to do the homework she assigns. That really didn’t sit well with me. I thought we are suppose to help kiddo learn to do better and always try her best (it was one of the good choices on her good/bad choices worksheet). So doesn’t this teach that inconsistency is something we allow? Our kiddo is not lacking any free time, so why can’t we ask her to do her homework? Therapist did explain to kiddo that she must do her SCHOOL homework, but any other homework the therapist assign her, she doesn’t have to do. The therapist doesn’t want to cause the kiddo any negative feelings….. I really do understand the concept but…it just feels…we are not holding her accountable. Therapist did tell me don’t remind the kiddo to do it, so I didn’t. Maybe in hope for kiddo to feel motivated to do it herself. Also to help her practice her memory. The kiddo did remember the next day and was talking about what she learned, so I asked if she wanted to do it, she said no. 

I know I’m not a professional. I don’t have a degree about child psychology or have any school-learned knowledge about how or what to teach our kiddo, but I just feel consistency is so important. Her school teacher also mentioned to the class that, kinder kids should only work a total of 2 hours a day… That was very shocking for me to hear also. There are twenty-four hours in a day, she spent about ten hours sleeping, there’s still fourteen hours left. With only 2 hours of “working” on school work, you want the kid to play for TWELVE hours a day?? I’m not saying kids have to sit with a book and learn all the time. But I feel a good compromise and mix between play and learning time is a better plan. Hubby said maybe teacher/district don’t want too much pressure on the kiddos AND the parents. I will just try and keep positive and believe that is what the message the teacher is trying to convey.

Well, better get back into the routine. Hang in there everyone!